Oct 19, 2010

Darkens

Life is not good at the moment. I know in the end I will be a far better person.
But it's not the end yet. I am slamming into brick wall after brick walls and my grazes won't heal. I just hope no one gives up on me...I feel they will soon.

6 comments:

Francisco :) said...

I could never!

Anonymous said...

you're so skinny

C. said...

Believe me, you're not alone.

F u n e r a l M i l k said...

always here for you!! let's hope that bell jar gets lifted

Erimentha said...

thinking of you lovely, pretty please post a sunset pic for me. they always make me smile. i hope it makes you smile too. xx eri

Anonymous said...

hello pretty,
I am not too sure how I came across your blog, I must have gone down a trail of wonderful pictures and stumbled upon you. You've been on my blogroll for some time now, and I can very much relate to your current feelings. I am 23 now, so a few years older than you, and have been to hell and back, without any particular obvious reason. You know how it is, great family, great friends, great boyfriend, yet there is this darkness that sucks you in and destroys you and it feels like you can cry cry cry and it never feels like enough. And some days you pretend like nothing is wrong, and you fake that happiness, more so for the benefit of those around you...
All I wanted to really tell you is that you are the only one who can really fix anything. I still struggle, but I overcame so many of my self-image and other issues, to the point where its only at the back of my mind now, not at the front, and although I haven't quite reached the light at the end of the tunnel, i no longer feel like I am in an endless fall with an all-consuming darkness.
just hang in there, cherish the things that make you feel less awful. maybe stop looking at so many high-fashion mediums & models. I can see it's a passion of yours, but it is so very unhealthy for your body and soul, to strive for that kind of perfection in your frail state. You are unique and perfect in all of your imperfections.
I send so much positive energy to you from the East coast!
xx